At the start of the year, I participated in a weekend-long “intention setting” meditation retreat with a few friends. One of the major themes of the work was about sussing out our own optimal balance between our masculine and feminine aspects (according the “traditional” meanings of such, as in yin/yang, active/receptive, etc.). Through some of this work, I got to see that my “masculine” or active-in-the-world self was much less developed than it needed to be if I were going to step into fuller power in my life.
In fact, both aspects of myself were going to have to grow precipitously to reflect who I really intend to be in the world, but as you might imagine from knowing me, my “feminine” side—my soft, emotional, reflective side—tends to take the reigns, so my masculine, active, forging side would have to be just a bit larger to keep things in the proper balance for me. At least, at this time.
When I was talking with my mentor on Friday, regaling her with my pure and epic delight over all my new financial discoveries and activities, she said that the first “hit” she got on this change was that I was engaging my masculine side. The “finance” side of things has historically, traditionally, stereotypically been the man’s world, and, indeed, there’s a voice within me (faint though it is) that says all this writing about finance is not what people (my readers) want to read.
That’s Class-A bullshit, but it’s there.
Whatever it is that “my readers” (all 12 of them!) want to read, they’ll vote with their clicks—toward or away from my blog, but it’s my job here, as always, to relate the truth of what’s happening in my spiritual and physical realm.
And presently, that’s the burgeoning, riveting, catalyzing world of personal finance.
J. joked that my bookshelf walls will be one self-help and the other personal finance. Because, yes, much of the non-fiction I’ve read in the last few years is women-authored “get bigger” books. Well, isn’t part of that bigger world one that includes shares and percentages? It is. And it feels perfectly aligned with the trajectory of my books, thoughts, progress to be stepping into this new realm of money.
No, it doesn’t feel “feminine” — but maybe part of my growth is to show that a lady can play, too.
Owning Voice 