Most vacation recaps center around, “What did you do?” Where did you go, What did you eat, What did you bring me back;) But I am infinitely more inspired by the question: What did I learn?
I can divide my reflections from the past 5 weeks into two categories: what was confirmed, and what was new.
Confirmed Info about Molly:
- Good coffee is the key to a good day.
- Compression socks are a godsend.
- Journal and meditation (with above-mentioned coffee) are a daily imperative.
- Spending a week with my mom is challenging.
- Spending time with my mom is fun.
New Info about Molly:
- I am an “arranger.” I will adjust my surroundings to suit my needs, literally. Need the armchair at the indie bookstore to be by the window? Move it. Need a hot water kettle for your coffee? Buy one. Want to sit on the dorm patio to watch the vivacious, vicious thunderstorm? Roll in a chair from a vacant dorm room. — I hadn’t realized this was a habit, or quality, of myself until another teacher in my month-long PD in Amherst pointed it out as I poured hot water over a travel cone of local coffee into a newly purchased giant mug. He reflected that I do this: I arrange things how I need them. Cool!
- I am susceptible to the black-hole vacuum of others’ needs. I have tools to ground myself (going for walks, to meetings, envisioning a tree), but my marrow setting is to allow my attention, my whole interior monologue, to be consumed and overwritten by your moment-to-moment needs. This is not entirely new information, but it shed brighter light on my relationship patterns and gave me compassionate perspective on how I grew up and how these patterns formed. Which will in turn, one hopes, help me repair that gulf between me and myself in challenging circumstances.
- I love where I live so much it brought tears when I finally sat this morning with my (giant) mug at my kitchen table and no pants. (Privacy, you are a gift!!) All here is “arranged” as I need, and I am beyond grateful for a warm place to call home in a neighborhood that provides what I need just a walk away.
There will be more to learn and grow from as I readjust to my life here (the least of which is the time zone!). But as I settle in, I know that what I’ve learned of myself is one of the truest gifts of my travel.
Welcome back, readers.