I’m having a Captain Obvious moment: Moving is Hard.
Now that my homebase is in the same county as my job(!), I am less and less desiring to cross a bridge after work, pack anything up, and then drive it back up over here. While J and I have already agreed that the larger pieces of furniture (of which there aren’t many) will be moved by professional movers… the ins and outs of when and how—with Thanksgiving eating an entire weekend in which movers may be so inclined to do so—is beginning to give me palpitations.
Add to that fact that I haven’t settled into any regular face-to-face or phone gatherings with like-minded folk, I’m feeling a bit spinny.
So, I got to be brave and tell J this morning that I needed some support. I was feeling (AM feeling!!!) a little off the rails about packing and scheduling and mustering motivation to cross the bridge twice in all these days leading up to the November 30 deadline to be out.
I said I needed physical support, and emotional … ushering, I called it, instead of “nudging”!
Add on top of many of these home upheaval things that my feelings at work are in high-overwhelm, and I’m not doing so hot.
I’m doing my best, and things are “just fine,” but I know that I need to get my meetings in and I need to get my items in a place where I can feel like it’s not gonna tumble on top of me in the last days of November.
Additionally, I really need to let my boss know—in MORE certain terms—that I’m not doing so well at work. I have several additional duties and classes/meetings at school this year, and I feel at many times like I’m just drowning in it.
I have made the genius move to teach my students mindfulness using the training I received at my last school, and that has helped these Massive Mondays to be a little more centering, but on the whole… I’m not having much fun.
It’s a season; I know it’s not permanent. But…
as J came to find me in my “blogging room” after my bid for help this morning, he put his arms around me and said, “Thank you for asking for help, for letting me know what your needs were. We’re a team.”
To quote Lean on Me:
“For no one can fill those of your needs
That you won’t let show.”