In a bout of manifesty goodness (or plain coincidence, if you’re feeling cranky), performance has been floating to the top of my experience again. Last Thursday morning, my blog was about how I was feeling itchy for performance, feeling isolated in my creative endeavors, and that I wanted more engagement in the theater or music realms.
On my drive in that morning, after having told you all about that, I was on the phone with a friend and told her the same. So: I spoke my intention in writing, then I spoke it aloud.
That afternoon, I received an email from a theater company I’d auditioned for several years ago inviting me to participate in their audition workshop. Eeek. Um. Well, I don’t have anything prepared right now! I haven’t auditioned in years, and I certainly don’t have a piece ready to go. “So,” I replied, “could I come to audit the workshop?” It would be great for me to be around theater again, the language again, to glean what I could–and I’m happy to pay the cost;)
And he replied, Yes.
Later on Thursday, in preparation for an upcoming trip to the Oregon Shakespeare Festival with my 7th graders, my boss reminded me that we have an in-house Shakespeare expert in our drama teacher! And while she’ll be instrumental in helping me form ideas for my curriculum and our trip… “Well,” I asked the drama teacher, “do you ever do audition coaching?”
And she said, Yes.
I am humbled and reminded that when I am specific and intentional about my goals, they repeatedly rise to the top of my experience. I forget that sometimes it’s as simple as letting people know that I have such dreams and goals. There’s a host of helpers, seen and unseen, just waiting for me to take ownership of them.
Even if it feels silly or embarrassing or I’m not ready or I’m good enough, that’s none of my business, frankly! My only role is to tell the truth. Show up. And play this ongoing game of Fluxx.